A sweet reward to myself for getting 4.0 last semester. Alhamdulilah. This is my very first time getting 4.0. So I felt like I was flouting on a cloud nine! The feeling was heaven knowing that all the hard work you poured into and determination paid off at the end of the day.
But to me the downside of getting four flat is that, you will endure more pressure to maintain flying colours result for the following semesters. You'll work extra harder than you used to, you'll become more anxious of everything, you expect a lot from yourself and therefore pressurize yourself to perform well, which will lead to spending longer hours of studying and working on the assignments. Yes, it's a good thing to be working extra harder than you used to, but the combination of high expectations and constant pressure will cause stress. And I do not like it at all. Of course a certain amount of stress is beneficial as it will make you always be on your own two feet. But when it spirals out of control, it can have disastrous effects on ourselves.
But I'm praying and rooting only for the best. I refuse to think of the negativity of it. Lets embrace ourselves with positive vibes. I believe everything will turn out great when you've set your mind so. That's what I always tell myself. Think positive, think positive, think positive has become my ultimate mantra in everything I do.
Even though right now as we speak, the thought of facing project paper and working with my supervisor makes me cringe and gives me a sudden headache. I'm so terrified! The topic that I'm going to write for my project paper is relatively new and hasn't been discovered by various literature. Doesn't it mean I'm going to face difficulty in writing the literature review? Yes? There are so many things running on my mind right now, mostly about my project. I'm sure a lot of my friends who are pursuing their masters now are facing the same thing as mine. No? Or is it just me??
I'm not naturally born and gifted with a super genius mind therefore this journey of getting masters has been a rough one for me. But nevertheless, lets hope for the better! To all my friends out there who are struggling with your Masters/Phd as well, lets us now endeavor, together with hard work and persistent, we can make it! InsyaAllah. Amin.