I feel so sad!

Last night before I hit the sack, out of boredom I browsed through my old pictures. Then I found these three photos of me from last year, if I'm not mistaken.

Then I suddenly realized how different I am now. Different, in a bad kind of way. Saya gemuk sekarang! Pipi saya sangat tembam! Don't believe me?

Seeeeeee!!! This photo was taken yesterday! I look so f***** fat! Clearly this is not perasan gemuk ke apa. Oh God, what have I done? Rasa sedih sangat!! First,second and third pictures tu nampak bentuk dagu saya kan, then fourth picture, poof it's gone! Look at the size of my cheeks as well! Obviously there are truckloads of fat in them! Sedih sangat sampai rasa nak menangis! To be honest before this 'tragic discovery' I've already noticed that I've gained some monstrous weight. I went from 45kg to 50kg and I can't fit into some of my clothes and jeans. But at the time, I thought it was not a big deal since I was quite flat at that time. I reckoned it's a good thing for me to gain some baby fat coz I always adored and wanted curvier body instead of flat one.

However this recent photo proof I'm wrong. This is totally not okay. Having noticed this significant difference, I no longer feel comfortable in my own skin. I feel ugly and most importantly, I don't feel good about myself. I know I have to do something, diet, exercise, bla bla bla..The problem is I am lazy. And I find it super difficult to control my appetite. I guess I digest too fast thus making me hungry all the time. And I also aware that whenever I'm hungry, I feel like my head is clogged and I can't think and focus. Thus, I resort to munching. Biscuits, coco crunch, snacks, you name it.

Nevertheless despite all the lame excuses, I have to do something. I know I have to. I must to. 

Maybe I can start ditching my obese cheeks by doing these exercises:

1. Profoundly pronounce the letters X-O a lot of times.

2. Open your mouth as around and wide as you can for a few seconds and then relax it. Do it about 30 times a day, in 3 different sessions–morning, midday and evening.

(Taken from Tips on How to Lose Weight from your Cheeks, WikiHow)